new beginning

This week has been hard.  It's the first week of school.  I find myself looking at the clock thinking about what is happening at school.  People innocently mention school assuming I'm teaching and I get teary eyed and making the person feel uncomfortable.  I wish I could have a channel on my t.v. that lets me in to see school.  I miss listening to the kids.  I miss learning, feeling energized by the excitement  of something new the kids bring.  I know this is just part of the adjustment, the grieving.  It will get better.